I need a hug.......

So like the title says I need a hug. For no apparent reason today has just downright sucked. Nothing overly bad happened, no one died, I slept in a warm bed last night, and even though I only had one meal today which I actually just ate I had the option to eat three meals. From the outside there's just no conceivable reason for me to be depressed. I can even tell you that on the inside I'm finding little reason to be depressed. In fact I'll let you in on a secret, even though I have a chemical imbalance which causes the depression I think I use it as an excuse.

So this Saturday is going to be pretty exciting Davidson get's married and I get to be there so I hope to have a good time. James will be here on Friday to hang out for the night then we are going to the wedding and then he will be going home after he drops me off back at home. Well so that's what's ahead this week. Since my last post I've come home but I've hardly done a thing. I've been listening to Bradley Hathaway tonight and one of his poems, Another One of Those Nights, stood out to me tonight like it has a few other times and so in closing I'm going to post the I guess they would be considered lyrics.

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So weary!
And leary…
And dreary…
Stop this mind from racing all the time
Restful peace, come hither, be mine
It was here earlier, but now it’s long gone and out of sight!
On this restless, sleepless, clogged up left nostril night
I remember sleep
And what a comfort it was
But now all it does is leave me lacking
Because even there these thoughts just won’t stop yacking
So I, I hit the floor and on bruised knees start banging down your door.
Can’t take this anymore
Holy Spirit manifest your being
Comfort this soul,
So that I can start singing of that peaceful feeling that any minute now you’ll be bringing
Grace grows in winter I am told
But that’s not what I want to hear right now, truth be known
It’s you Father that I desire
So put out this unholy fire
And set ablaze me anew
With a peace that comes only from you
Where else can I turn and what else may I do?
Here I am…
Yours!
Here I am…
Yours!
Here I am…
Yours!

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One love yo.